my story

I was born in Eastern Europe and the first ten years of my life were heavily affected by the scarcity of things. Things most people take for granted. I remember when the first McDonald’s opened in the early 1990s – it was considered a luxury restaurant. We waited over two hours in line to get in for my birthday.

 

When we moved to Canada, my parents sent me to dance lessons and piano lessons. We got to travel. I had clothes and food and Toys-R-Us. It was an abundance I’d never known & in a material sense, I was very privileged. 

 

As I grew older, I began to feel an inner void I couldn't explain. Like I was deeply flawed and not good enough. I mostly functioned in ‘be nice & convenient’ mode so I wouldn't rock anybody's boat. On the outside I looked like I had everything 'together.' On the inside I felt a deep sense of shame and worthlessness. The mechanisms I’d developed to cope with this void included bulimia, alcohol abuse, a brutal inner oppressor and always smiling.

By twenty-two, I had mastered the art of being invisible. And I’d also lost all sense of me.

On the edge of utter self-destruction, and in a very Eat Pay Love kind of way (before it was popular), I decided to quit my corporate job and go to India to live in an ashram.

 

There, I changed my eating habits. I learned about energy, attended spiritual talks, meditated and chanted. I took my first yoga class, my first breathing class & had my first energy treatment.

 

I healed my body there. I also got in touch with an underlying sense of worthlessness and deep despair. I became aware of just how much of a stranger I’d become to myself.

 

When I returned, I spent every last dime saved from my corporate job on healing courses. I ate healthier, became a yogi, took up dance, established a meditation practice & many other things.

 

Despite my best efforts to be mindful, meditate and eat right, the feeling of unworthiness was still lurking in the corners of my being.

I didn’t feel good enough and like I didn’t belong anywhere.

 

I took a 3-year healing break to dive deep into the unworthiness void. I learned about trauma and attachment. And I found the missing piece: my inner parent and the disconnection from my inner child.

 

With lots of support from healers, coaches, retreats and most importantly Mother Nature, I began to release the trauma of emotional neglect from my body and get in touch with the real me that I had hidden and was so afraid of for so many years.

Over the years, I began to heal the not-enoughness void. I released all toxic attachments & changed my relationship with giving and receiving. I got in touch with my emotions and let them run through my body. I reclaimed my vulnerability, reconnected with nature, re-discovered (and continue to) my boundaries and became kinder to and more accepting of myself. 

 

And don’t get me wrong, the worthlessness wound still surfaces at times, but it doesn't dictate nor define my life any longer.

 

And that is what I want for you.

 

To become the greatest source of your own safety and nurturing so you can stop over-functioning and re-discover the beauty of receiving.

 

To own your innocence, courage, inner wisdom, intuition, dreams, rawness and ability to love.

 

To release the inner struggle in exchange for peace.

 

To live a life of inner freedom, beauty and confidence.

 

It takes a resilient, brave, heart warrior to end a legacy of struggle, depletion and emotional self- abandonment.

If you’ve found your way to this page, I believe you are it.

 

It would be an absolute honour to support you on this journey. 

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CREDENTIALS

Emotional Freedom Technique Practitioner (EFT, Gary Craig)

Transforming the Experience-Based Brain (Austin Attachment, Stephen Tyrell)

Clarity Breathwork Practitioner 

Biodynamic Breathwork & Trauma Release LVL I (BBTRI)

DARe I (Dynamic Attachment Re-Patterning Experience) 

Reiki Practitioner (Lvl 2, USA)

​Ayurvedic Lifestyle Practitioner (AIVS, USA))

Angel Therapy Practitioner (Doreen Virtue)

​Thai Massage Therapy Practitioner (Thai Massage Toronto)

​Yoga Educator & Mindfulness Meditation (500+ hrs)​

Women's Temple Facilitator Training (Awakening Women Institute)​​

Well Woman Teacher Training (Womb Yoga, UK)

 

PADDLEBOARD TRAINING

SUP Yoga Teacher Training, Paddle Into Fitness

Paddle Canada Basic Skills Instructor

Advanced Skills Paddle Canada

World Paddle Association (WPA-I) 

From what now feels like my past life, I hold a

B.Commerce from the University of Toronto & a Piano Performer Diploma from the Royal Conservatory of Music